6:05 p.m. - Thursday, Dec. 07, 2006
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Mixed feelings now. Im worried-excited-worried over tomorrow's outcome. Please!! May some miracle happen hopefully.. Oh man, im just soooo worried!!! Come on, doing business must be prepared for all these right? Sigh!! But i cant help it but to feel extremely anxious. Haiyoyo!

Tuesday-
Forced to head over to woodlands to meet him. Went there soooo reluctantly.. Bumped into andrew's ex at woodlands. Nothing seemed to go right, was in horrid mood, yet still need to attend interview session. To make matter worse, im late for an hour. Ended up feeling so embarrassed since is my first time conducting an interview, moreover, is even more uncomfortable and weird that i am conducting an interview as their boss and they are like soo much older than me!! Desmond lighten things up, humoured me n flourishing me with endless jokes. Not that bad after all huh.. Im amazed by his interviewing skills, so i just gazed at him in daze while he conducted all interviews for me. MY HERO!!

Yesterday:
His texted "where u now, how u going over?"
Me texted "I will fly today, definitely wont be late. Reaching in 10 mins time"
After 30 mins, met him and he went "Fly fly fly, still late. Wanted to fetch u just now u knoe.."
Me *rolled eyes!!*
For yesterday's interview, i conducted it all myself and he ended up gazing at me in daze at the corner of the room. Im sooo glad that i asked intelligent qns and i did not make a fool out of myself. Interviewing can be fun! We continued to stay in the centre playing around like small kids after the interview was over. I really like it! =) My new playground with him, the ctr.

11:58 p.m. - Thursday, Nov. 30, 2006
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Yesterday(wed) french test was a killer. Walked into class with high confident, and i ended up crawling out bleeding*. Awwww.. Didnt know that it just sux alot lar. Sigh! Skipped lect, find Ms Zen and legally stole her notes and went for POM tutorial. Awwww.. I ended up bleeding too for that tutorial, Sigh!! Nothing went right yesterday la. And how did i destress? I did online shopping and spent SGD158 on oldnavy and american eagles apparels. They are all US brands, very well known.. Same status as abercrombie & fitch. Anyway, thats not the point.. Point is, I did my impulse purchase to vent my anger. Thats sooo wrong!

Oh ya, i met my pri one best friend, gerri, at tp library. Gosh.. miss her babe! Gorgeous and pretty as ever. We catched up lots.. Sigh, she was one of those who came into poly after doing badly in JC. Nevertheless, Cheers to our 11 years friendship. A tribute to Esther too, another JC-dropout-TP. My pri 1 best friend too.. How often will u able to sustain a friendship that sparks off since pri 1? Lols.. 11 years friendships, and still counting =)

today--
Otbs lab sux sooo much, doubly torturous under the hands of benedict! Phewww, glad that he got urgent meeting and left after an hour and another tutor got to take over. Muahahhaa SHIOK!! We were cheering after learning the news. If only every lab gonna b like that, we wish!!

Mr Wong seemed weird today.. Soooo weird, and i find it undescribable over his words and his actions. Hmmm =/ Anyway, thanks for cancelling ur dinner and accompany me today. Had a great night with u..

Biz is peaking, is peaking, is peaking!!!!!! =) I still couldnt believe it that luck is with me. Do stay with me alittle while more pls. I need plenty of luck in the next coming 3 weeks.. And please eileen, go take some time out to see ur mummy! yeah! =)

10:35 a.m. - Tuesday, Nov. 28, 2006
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Wheee! Everything is finalised and ive gotten my license to operate it. Great!! it gonna be an exciting journey to take on! Wish me luck.. As u can see, ive upgrade to another a whole new level. Thinking back, am i going a little too fast? hmmm..

I pon bennedict's class yesterday (monday) SHrugs! I dont like him, i dont like OTBS.. Went to submit the project at 4pm and was called into his office. Got whacked up with a lecture eventually. "Where's ur lab work? Where's ur print screen? Why u did not attend class today? Are u going to do that again? U know what lab we are at now?" Oh gosh.. how i wish i can just strangle him and hammer him hard right at that spot in time. Arrghhh

***Crazy man, why are u at work when ure on mc? Very good!!! ure very packed up this week and im feeling darn neglected. Who cares, ive got better things to do this week too. =)

8:22 p.m. - Saturday, Nov. 25, 2006
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Yawn! With such raining season, i cant help it but to feel sleepy. Yawn!!!

I dreamt of my ex while taking my nap. So scary la!!!

Last night, while i've given up hope on some biz prospect for this year, another opportunity happily came along. =) Oh man.. This is sooo cool. Thanks mum, i knew it was u! Thanks for watching over me. Btw, i just got my bursary approval.. Arent u proud of me, mummy? *smirks.

According to him, he was at chinatown donating blood this afternoon. He told me as if im darn interested in what he's doing. So was he expecting me to go "Oh no, ure such a hero!!" Muahahaha. Oh yeah, hero dont spell things out sooo loudly like u do. Anyway, ya la.. Cheers to u, Samaritan! Think ure longing for this sentence straight from my mouth. pui!! Such egoistic in guys to show off to girls they r great. Libras are sooo good at charming girls off their feet, just like that. Oh watever la.

3:30 a.m. - Saturday, Nov. 25, 2006
=)
Didnt go school today(fri). Excuse me, this is not pontang, im merely clearing my
leave.

Sales not bad!! Stayed from 10am-5pm.. We spent most of our time Q-ing up
here and there. Based on the crowd.. I can conclude that (1) They are
clearing their leave like me (2)They are using their maternity leave. (3)They took half day off.(4)They are eating snake!! (5) extended lunch hours.

What makes me come out with such conclusion? Muahahha, ive witnessed many
pregneant women, many in their office attire, many came in GROUPS in office
attire even at 3pm(after lunch hour leh), and one extreme case which worth
me a laugh.. a guy in his DHL uniform. So we started discussing if he was
eating snake? If his truck of parcels was parked outside and "skide" away to
some sales. Lols!! Damn hilarious exploring everyone. Darling played mahjong
while Q-ing up and i going around spotting friends. =) Smirks*

Basically everything had to Q and Q.. Q to enter(at least an hour or 2), and
Q to pay (at least an hour or 2).. We had a great time though.. Besides
digging stuff for myself, we went around taking pics and sending MMS so that
our external "beloved" out there can make their purchase. See, how amazing
telecommunications can be. And "they---our beloved" can easily get infos n pics
easily without them Q-ing up. tsktsktsk..

We went to the extend of opening those boxes underneath. A few man saw us doing it, and their whole gang gave us a hand. Save us quite a lot of hassle, since we dont have to do it ourselves. Spent quite a bomb for the 3 sales. Phewww! Shiok.. On the boo-boo side, think i should have brought along my complimentary credit card.

7:27 p.m. - Wednesday, Nov. 22, 2006
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Pissed pissed pissed!!! Arrghh!
Screw u la.. Im darn disappointed with u yesterday. Sighz. Like, how the hell u can treat me this way. Asshole!

And u**!!! With so much fonding memories that we once shared, didnt know im actually that meaningless in ur life now. Yes, soooo meaningless that u dont need me anymore, u dont bother to care, we are not contactable anymore. Not even seem to be friends. If u r better off n happier without me, then fine, suit u!! U r still the best ive ever known of, n ive never regret knowing u. I miss the old u, that old times of ours n i still do see ur name all over. I dont know why things have turn out so nasty between us right now, so stranger.. i really dont wish things to turn out like that. U r hiding away n im avoiding away. I miss every little things of u n ur presence. My love, sincerely hope ure fine! N do take care, cos i really care to bother still.

Today.. POM tutor fall sick and tutorial's cancelled. Many of them came all the way down from sch and realised it was cancelled. Sooo sad, for people like iain, cindy etc. Muahahaha. Decided to head down oppo sch for "beer drinking" session. That "beer drinking" session turns out to "family meal" at KFC. Zhichao,Iain,cindy,me and su. Talked cock from 2-6pm.

Im feeling damn idiotic today. Nothing seems to be moving well these days. Stop pissing me off with little shits. How i wish u r by my side now, but u arent here with me.. U should know what conclusion yesterday's gonna bring. Face the consequences of ur doings. Yesterday's meetup was a dreadfully wrong move.
Sighz!

10:04 p.m. - Monday, Nov. 20, 2006
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Oppps! didnt realised that ive not been updating about my life. Well, what can i say..
-Bennedict hates me and his OTBS lesson just sux alot!
-My dearest louis is having his usual mood swing n i miss him.
-I was approached by a number of people to do business with. (And i really doubt their ability!!)
-Just realised that Zhicao,Ian,Jit are not that hopeless after all. (i never have a gd impression about them)
-Just realised that, i do actually have a common topic with that 3 guys above. (which i never want that to happen)
-A mixed feeling over venturing a new biz and is like, "people" jus wont understand the position im in, the anxiety, the fear and the excitement. Is hard to share, cos they simply wont understand. Sigh!
-My new gf has been flourishing me with endless amt of sweets =)
-I love my brother tons!!
-Bro's gf got into ms chinatown.
-Many sales coming up, me n darls are getting ready for it.
-Im crazy over him
-He is doubly crazy over me.
-Louis is damn kinky, but is ok.
-Im having too much distractions and all i need is focus.
-New creation, steam balls!
-We got a joint bank account together.
-Im loving my world with 3 hps
-Im neglected by Miss Zen
-Joel sooo annoying
-Lawrence's a pest!
-Marcus sounds childish, we are so damn different wavelength
-Whats wrong with lesbians,ass!
-Darls' A level Over
-SP exams just started
-Another new creation of halal pork and beer
-I miss u baby

Sibuay random la... But thats the update for these 2 weeks!

1:21 a.m. - Sunday, Nov. 05, 2006
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Wow!! He came over my place this afternoon with his SO(significant other). And i was practically still half asleep. tsk tsk tsk!! He wore a big pony polo n a pair of sunglass, trying to act cool infront of me. Asshole! But ya la, is damn cool when he is tan. If u can sense, i am feeling extremely uncomfortable n feeling so horrid.. n yet u can act so norm huh. SIAO!

Missed my sales today!! How could i have miss it. sigh! I have accounts receivable of $400 till date, n i need to recover them by the next 7 days in order to close our sales account. Have to use the loanshark tatics to recover them back! Arrghh.

3:53 a.m. - Saturday, Nov. 04, 2006
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Phewww.. Finally weekend is here, and im done with my 5 kids. Their exams are over!! Hoorray!! I am sure they gonna do well, with my endless torturous session+scoldings+beating+nagging+hws. I pon 2 tutorials these week without mc covered just for tutoring!! No choice, when students r having exams la. But is okay, wat matter most is that they do well. =)

2 hours lab today, n i spent my 2 hours lab doing my biz. Shiok! Thats all for school. 2 hours lesson n went home.

5+pm, took a cab to tiong bahru to meet him n he changed his venue to redhill. *&@%$@#*@# Took a train ride over to redhill n then we ride to kovan macdonald. I got not enough cash wit me after taking cab n weird thing, he gave me $50 when i wana buy drink n ask me to keep the rest. Lols. im $47+ richer, not bad!! Nua till 11.30pm or so. Why kovan?? Cos mac there is quieter n parking's free (illegal parking) n great food n is near redhill. or at least he knows how drive there in the fastest n safest mode. =) Great evening, with him.

7:11 a.m. - Wednesday, Nov. 01, 2006
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School is fun with great people!

Lunch on monday went:
Zhi: one hour break leh.. we drive go novena eat.
Jit: Yeah man, how about steamboat at marina?
ME: Wah not bad, can fly kite also!!
Ian: Katong laksa lor.. can count harm!
Su n rest laughing non stop.
Me: Why not drive to malaysia eat seafood?
All: "Wah, Good idea!!! Lets go now.."
Everyone all walked out of school with anticipation(as if we are really going over to malaysia), end up, crossing over the bridge and head down oppo n had BAH KU TEH instead. ROLL EYES!! Muahahhaha.. We cant helped laughing while thinking back over those conversation. Su kept making fun abt how we gonna fly kite+counting harm+driving to malaysia just within an hour LUNCH break. Funny people la!!

Mon+tues+wed: Phewwwwww! Chiong tuitions like mad, racing for time with countless tuitions till abt 11pm each night. Bless me pls! Nov 1 today. Dont shoot me, i didnt go for my SGH appt today. Yes, im scared.. enough said isnt it? Give me some time, i will go for my appt in time to come. Im on a very strict IRON diet these days. My bro and dad r extremely worried over my condition too. And im feeling bad cos they r worrying. Think they gonna kill me up if they know im running away from my appt today!! What if is cancer or i need bone marrow n stuff like that?? Oh watever, i dont care!! Truth just hurts isnt it. *pouts

Jialad, my heart thump fasts when i see him ahem.. Think is better not to even see each other at all. Avoid seems to be a better alternative. For whatever reason it is, "so near yet so far".

2:32 a.m. - Thursday, Oct. 26, 2006
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All thanks to u again.. chatted with me till late night n i couldnt wake up for school today(wed). Sighz!! there goes my annual leave jus on the 2nd day of school. Luckily moro(thurs) is a self declared holiday. Not gonna go school moro.. YEAH!!! My husband and daughter are extremely kinky today, whats wrong with the 2 of them. Hmmm, wondering hard* Vincent and his hotel81 too!! tsk tsk tsk.. Whats the world coming too? =/

Halloween is coming, and there goes my long list of party/clubbing session. They have different theme u know, and is soooo cooL. Randell from SP gonna organise it, and i swear Joel will drag me along. Darls too, will start coming after me for drinking.. But as promised, i will be real good!! Stop tempting me, i wont fall into it this time! =D

Someone's name has been popping in my head. I blurted out his name sooo unintentionally few days back. And i blurted out his name jus now again!! Whats wrong with me and this someone? Bad omen!! And another name pop by my head too.. The self proclaim one who had slim down? All thanks to someone who had mentioned it.. Bad omen number 2!

1:22 a.m. - Tuesday, Oct. 24, 2006
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Have been indulging with endless shopping spree!! When will i ever stop buying.. Just tooo much of impulsive buys! They r evil!

Last friday, walked past Singtel shop.. eyed on a nokia phone, and yeah. Sign up a new line and got my phone. Whats wrong with me huh.. And i didnt realised that my old phone line was not up 2 years yet. So now, im readily stuck with 3 phones 3 lines. Thanks to my impulsiveness. Well, what can i say.. start rolling eyes then. Is sooo uncool to bring 3 phones with 3 lines around la. As extracted from him.. "loanshark!!" Bear with me please!! Gosh.. didnt even tell my dad about it up till today! =X
Went past some boutiques after puchasing my phone and another impulsive shopping spree again.. I spend like another $100 after walking into those boutiques. Just for friday itself.. I spent nearly half a K. *pouts! Yes, is a guilty indulge.

Im gonna be good n i shall not spend anymore, im not kidding kk!!

Weekends chiong tuition and last night(monday).. He texted me tellin me he's back. Hmmm, not really that excited over his return. He seemed more excited than me, SIAO!

Today(monday), first day of school. Monday blues!! Soooo sleepy after chatting with him online till 4am. Whole day in school with a grumpy face. But that soon became a history after meeting my precious babies for lunch. muacks! I love u guys sooo much la, JUST LIKE THE WAY U DARLs LOVE ME TOO!! Aheeemm!!! But is true kk.. After lunch, went tutorial together wit louis and then headed to tuition aft school. And next, went over to Kovan to meet *him*. He got himself a tattoo on his right shoulder. Omg, damn nice!! Small, simple n sophiscated, nothing loud that scare me off. I like!! Wana take pic, but it seems kinda sore still.. Will take it next time round.

Life has been great.. I got a husband and a dauighter! Life's soooo complete!! *smirks. I love today.. But i love him even more. lalalalala Oh ya, i love my husband and daughter tooo! Dont say im not fair kk! =P
Is a day where all dreams come true. =) TOO perfect to be true, but is true!! I jus pinch myself to ensure that they r.. No kidding huh.

11:42 p.m. - Thursday, Oct. 19, 2006
=(
I am sick.. again! i dont wish to say this, but i really cant help it. Timetable's out. Looks really good!!!

Sorry.. im tired of all these. I had enough, lets break up. Where are u when i needed u the most? Maybe my sept/october boy just isnt u this time. Pleaseeeeee, just dont come back.. Im well off alone.

10:13 p.m. - Tuesday, Oct. 17, 2006
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Product launching at Hyatt Hotel these two days.. and im lacking of rest. Phewww! Racing for tuitions too since kids are having their PSLE marking day holi. Haze is really bad, and i feel like puking every now and then. His birthday in less than 2 hours time. Sadder note, he's not in Singapore. Sighz!! Will u come back soon, the suspense of waiting is a killer.
School's starting and im really dreading it. Think is not the first time i have mention it here. And YES, im gonna say it again the 3rd time.. Im dreading school!

10:26 p.m. - Sunday, Oct. 15, 2006
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Holy shit!!! Man are a lump of bastards. Was on my way home on bus 22 this evening at 7.30pm, saw this damn idiotic gross Malay man with his hp angled at me in a very awkward manner. Saw the reflection through the bus window and i could see images of ME in his hp through his hp screen. He didnt know i was watching him so closely on every act he was doing. Feeling extremely pissed, annoyed, disgusted, disturbed.. My most immediate reflex action without a do,i dont know why, was to pick my hp up immediately, dialed 999 and i went "Hi, im now in a bus and a man is filming me on his hp. Do i snatch it from him now or do i wait for u police to come."

Phewww. Didnt know that i have such gut in me to actually do this! Gosh.. Count ur luck bastard, dont expect me to keep silence about it!! The police operator on the line told me to pass the hp to the bus driver. The bus stopped immediately and all passengers were not allowed to drop off the bus. Brainless people! (i mean the police operator) Why didnt he allow me to snatch his hp off? In that kind of scenario, that bastard most likely would have deleted all evidence right? YIKES! All the passengers started ranting and requested to get off the bus. But the bus driver would not allow anyone to get off the bus until the police arrived. I told the bus driver to let those "innocent" ladies to get off the bus since they arent involved in this case.. That bastard went to the bus driver and hysterically blurted that he was in a rush and pleaded to get off the bus. I snatched his hp which was apparently in his hand and asked him to shut up and wait. The police took such a long time to arrive and they finally arrived after 30 mins. SO EFFICIENT HUH!!! That bus was stopping out of nowhere, and there was an obvious jam with long q of vehicles trailing behind the bus. Feel kinda bad about it la.

I re enact the whole scenario out again while the police wrote down my statement when they arrived. That malay bastard of course, pleaded innocent, and had already deleted all visuals of me inside.(which idiot wont after sensing something is wrong)I glared at that bastard non stop, almost reward him with a slap and a kick and a punch and a CUT down his there. Couldnt control my frustration! Kept blurting out raging words at him while the police officers tried to calm me down. That bastard didnt dare to look at me, often looking down in a guilty manner. Despite invalid evidence, i still choose to pursue this police case. That bastard was brought to the police station while me, went home after taken down my statement. If found guilty, that bastard will be sued and jailed for up to 2 years or maximum fine of $8000. Serve u right, bastard! Im sure my detailed and expressive statement will be of good use. I dont learn descriptive compo for nothing. This case is offically taken into investigation.
I bet that bastard wont be having a sound sleep tonight. Count your blessing for meeting me tonight.. I wont let matter rest soooo easily for bastards like u! Jus imagine how many innoncent and ignorant girls out there living in such a world of bastards, and most would rather live in silence than to raise such cases out in situation like this.. such bastards deserve it, we girls have dignity, ass! Phewwwwww!!! What a Sunday night to spend and there went my 2 hours of time!! Spoiler of the day. To end it off in a lighter tone, as quoted by alt "Pretttyyyyyy girl's issue!" Lols.. YA RIGHT! She toooo had her own fair of pervert's encounter this noon. What a day of perverts! Sighz.

2:09 p.m. - Friday, Oct. 13, 2006
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I will make this a solemn post. Things arent looking good for my blood test..
Extremely low red blood count, red blood cell not as red as it should be, red blood cell adnormally small in size.
I cried all the way back home from hospital. Cancer? Luekemia? Blood disease?These are all the possibilities mentioned by doctor yesterday. Treatments available, bone marrow? blood transfusion? chemo?
Im referred to the hermotologist(blood specialist)in SGH on 1 nov. How long more can i live, i dont know. Should i go for followup treatment or should i leave it as it is and act as if nothing has happen to me? Im scared, i feel so alone, my health is at stake, and my family dont even know how bad my condition is at the present moment.
If im undergoing treatment, how will my family be able to fork out the expenses? I dont wana go through the process of treatment! The trial gonna be torturous, gonna be pain, gonna be lonely and helpless. I dont want all these!! Even if death gonna be the option in the end, i will choose to die in dignity. Perhaps, my mum has decided to take me along?
I didnt know that my condition is far worse than ive expected. Does anyone really understand the fear im in.. Crying alone, yet not telling my family about it.. treatment or not? Follow up or not? I seriously dont know. Call me a coward baby.. I dont have the courage neither do i have the financial ability to go through all these. Enough of all these, FATE! U push me to my limits already, what else do u want!!! R u really that heartless to bring my family one by one to death? Stop playing jokes on me.. I cannot take it anymore. Im soooo weak at the current state, stop abusing me mentally, physically and emotionally. Im tired, im scared, really! What if im left with less than a yearr to live, what am i gonna do in my remaining days? The fear is unbearable.. Right at this moment, i really feel like seeing everyone!! I have sooo much to say, so much to do.. I desperate for someone who is willing to see through at least that last rainbow with me. All my fear lies within.. Sigh!

Little precious, my sweet surrender. u cant take me along anymore. Weak, trembling in tears, in fatigue. Precious of mine, go soar alone and forget me. No longer bear the name in the current state of me.

11:42 p.m. - Wednesday, Oct. 11, 2006
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Im falling sick, im falling sick!!!
Arrghhh! In moments like this, i will start to miss many people. Boohoohoo! Conclusion, i cant take care of myself well. sigh.. Will be going TTSH for checkup tomorrow. Blood test will be out. Im really scared. Actually called upon trying to cancel/postpone my appointment this afternoon, but i will have to wait till next month if i dont turn up tomorrow! FIne, i have no other choice but to face the music tomorrow. Most likely, i wont be able to sleep tonight. The anxiety.. Gosh. =X

Met him yesterday (tues). =) Muacks. Haiyoyo! DOnt know why, but i am still missing u thou i jus met u yesterday? Not cool. I wanna see u again soon before u heading back to malaysia for 10 days. 10 days???? How could u, how could u? Sigh.. I dont have the patient to wait neither do i like the suspense period. Tell me what to do. *pouts Im considering of leaving Singapore for a short vacation before school reopen. Im thinking of Batam or Bintan this time, or maybe phuket? At least i wont feel that horrid during that 10 days right? tsk tsk tsk.

*i really like it when u report to me every little things ure doing without fail, without even me asking!

2:48 a.m. - Monday, Oct. 09, 2006
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Rotting at home today(sunday). Went for tuition in the morning, and locked myself up the whole day! Read a few chapters of biz book, drew up a few proposals and make a few phone calls and there went my 9 hours! Pheww. What a time well spent! So is not really rotting actually right? =/
It gonna be an exciting week this week im sure. My kids are having compo and oral exams this week, please do well. Let's stay focus, and im already start counting down to school reopen. IM DREADING IT!!! NONONONO! I dont wana go back school. Im extremely satisfied with my life now.

*WOW WOW WOW, u amazed me with ur smses today. Whats wrong wit u? But i enjoy those smses of urs! U fondle me till bits. Lets meet up soon! U promised me something, remember? If u dont, i will write it down on a paper and u can burn it and drink! U taught me this. *smirks

*Jac: &@^@%!@*$*@!_#@($)^$#%@ Ure horrible!!! Another fickle minded organism, must be a VIRGO right?!

11:47 p.m. - Saturday, Oct. 07, 2006
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Oct 7!! Congrats on your wedding!
Tying the knot, saying the vow, having your wedding dinner etc..
The thought of it just disgust me, yes!! im glad is just a thought of it. Thanks to U, keeping so mum about your wedding, and i have to pretend that i dont know about it. Asshole! i knew it eons ago, and yet i still have to play around acting soooo naive about this whole thing. Wondering hard, why r u keeping me in the dark for? Seriously concern about my feelings and dont wana agitate/hurt me, or afraid i might be there to snatch the groom and spoil the whole shit out of it?
Texted u jus now with a congrats sms, and u didnt reply. Were u in a state of shock after seeing that sms of mine? That sms means no harm, is just a reminder to u that UR EFFORT FROM HIDING UR WEDDING HAD ALL GONE TO WASTE! And i seriously seriously mean no harm, is just a congrats greeting thats all. So whats next? How are u gonna face me and what will your explaination be like or u just gonna act as if nothing has happen? Is just a matter of time before u fall onto me and start clinging again.. Is sooo ironic that a single cell organism like u can be such an ASSHOLE! I dont know, u make me hate u yet love u at the same time. U know, the connection between us these days were a pleasing one, a very loving/caring/full of understanding kinda shit/yet protective and not showing up all. Whatever it is, im feeling extremely horrid all day long. Missing u make it worse, ur name is all around me. Asshole! This is a classic example of a FATAL ATTRACTION.
Come on, we shall stick in believing that we both are happy with each other presence, and your presence makes a remarkable impact in my life and vice versa.

8:09 p.m. - Tuesday, Oct. 03, 2006
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One yr anniversary, mum. (according to lunar calendar) Woke up at 5am to visit her this morning. Lets continue from where ive stopped the other time on her one yr anniversary (according to normal calendar.)
If i could turn back the time, one year ago.. 10pm: I got a sudden urge of seeing my mum in hosp. I told my dad and bro about my sudden weird urge of wanting to see her. They thought i was hallucinating and couldnt bothered much abt me. I plucked up the courage to make a trip down myself almost immediately and i dialed my aunt hoping she too, will make a trip to see my mum. I rushed over to the hosp and stood by her bed telling her many stories and stuff that she once mentioned to me. I stood by her stoking her cheek and told her she will be fine. I could still visualise, i pick her hand, trying to warm it, and kiss it gently. My aunt came in soon after.. We sat by her bed while my aunt started reminisce about those childhood days of theirs, and also how my mum had brave through many tough times when she was younger. It was a laughing+crying moment with my aunt. I could really feel the presence of my mum while we were talking beside her bed. Im sure she was able to hear and she really love hearing all those.. They were many jokes that we cracked up with over the silly stuff that my mum once did/said. Many a times throughout the conversation, we were interrupted by the nurse who kept coming in to take her blood pressure(almost every 15 mins). For every measure she took, the nurse shook her head and told us it got lower again. We were controlling our tears, comforting one another, and ensuring my mum that she will be home soon. We stayed on till the doctor came for a routine check. The doctor wanted us to go home since we cant do anything by staying there. It was 11.45pm.. I hesitated as i cant bear to leave her lying there. She feels scared, and she needs me to be there assuring and comforting her. The doctor insisted we should go.. I took a wet towel and wiped my mum face and gave her a last kiss before oblige wit the doctor and left. I kept turning back trying to catch more glimpse of her.. How would i expect that to be my last glimpse, my last wipe for her, my last final kiss to her. The rest were history. At home, i tried so hard to catch a wink.. When finally i managed to fall asleep, a call came shortly after, at 2.09am. "ur mum just left!" Tears just came rolling down. My heart hurts alot, up till today!! Why didnt i just stay by her side? If i would be more sturbbon and insist of stayin put that night in the hospital, then at least my mum will have a dignified departure accompanied by her daughter by her side. WHY?? She cant bear to leave us in my presence? My sudden urge was true. I knew it something was wrong.. Why didnt my dad+bro believe me? They regretted alot by not heeding my say. My dad throughly believes that, when its time to go, its time to go. I live to regret up till today, i should have stayed with her. U love us soo much to choose a good time to leave. U dont want us to get into much hassle during ur departure. U left us when bro got his 2 weeks NS off, so that he was at home and was able to see u in hosp for the very last time. And u dont want my studies/school activities to be affected and choose to leave during my 2 months vacation. Mum, u left us when everyone was around conveniently/at home/a time where our lives was not cropped up in school or in NS. U loved dad sooo much that u left him near the wedding anniversary. Coincidence or predestined? I knew u had plan all these and had bid farewell much earlier without noticing us. The bond between both me and my mum was deeply special. Throughout her trial, ive been the closest to her, and she longed me for doing well in school. Studying is something she had no chance in doing when she was younger, and she want us kids to fulfil this wish for her. Thou she never had a proper education, she was real gifted and could convey in many languages and can write fluently. She taught herself many skills despite a tough childhood. For a mother this strong, strong enough to watch this family grow up, before willing to embark on her own journey.. We'll take care of ourselves, please do not worry. Today, let me do my part as a daughter who u will be proud of. Im still staying strong battling many tough times like u used to in your living years. My latest exam result is my best gift to u.. Look at your daughter, look at your family now, reminding you that u still have a family that miss u alot, your 18 yrs old daughter who is stronger and matured than other girls of her age. Im sure u will be proud of, just like we do, having a mum like u. Although u couldnt fulfil your role as a mum like other mums did, but u did it in a very special and different way. Mum, we could feel it strong on the teachings for these past years. The sufferings u had gone through had never be in vain, at least u instil us with a very valuable learning lesson in life that other kids wont experience it. Thanks for everything, mum.

This afternoon:
I dont like them!!! PANGSEH AGAIN!!! ANOTHER ASSHOLE/(S)!! U THINK EVERYONE SO FREE LIKE U TO TURN DOWN LAST MINUTE JUST LIKE THAT??? I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO IF U CANT TURN UP, AT LEAST SAY EARLIER! AND I MEAN MUCH EARLIER!!!! U RUINED ALL MY PLANS FOR TODAY!!! I COULD HAVE DONE OTHER MEANINGFUL THINGS, I COULD HAVE PLAN OTHER APPOINTMENTS, I COULD HAVE DONT MANY STUFF IN OFFICE, I COULD HAVE ACCOMPANY HIM! JUNK SHIT! U THINK LAST MINUTE HELPS?? I HAVE NO TIME TO PLAY AROUND WITH U LIKE THAT!!!!! IF U PROMISED A DAY, KEEP TO IT!!!! DONT U UNDERSTAND SUCH SIMPLE THING??? I HATE U!
And that HE, I was super duper pissed with him too, almost feel like strangling him up today. How could u rant me up like that? How could u not trust me? How would i do such a thing to u? It ended off with a sms from me to him. "No ill intention, it really wasnt mine. Neither was it on purpose or was it accidentally." Asshole!! Dont u trust me! =( We have been through so much and will i do such thing to hurt u? U hurt me lots by that accusation of yours. =(

1:03 a.m. - Tuesday, Oct. 03, 2006
=)
Had an extremely important meeting today at shaw house office 8.30-12.30nn! Phewww. Is definitely my first ever attending such prestigous meeting. Is no longer a mock up one that is seen in school ok. So REAL!! My previous meetings were just for internal workers purposes, but still those formal kind. Today My goodness, is special!!!! Cos im suppose to air my views on certain isses during meeting today. Whats more, they are CEO of a MNC from San Franciso. They wana break through into singapore's market and would need various local media publicity. I was pratically breaking into cold sweat and can be seen trembling so often. Yes, is scary meeting fames!!! A great exposure and a wonderful experience. More to come next week, and im getting on hand.

My name card is ready too.
Proudly present:
EILEEN TAN
PR executive
business IT
(blah blah and so on)
So cool right? lOls, lazy to scan them. Im happy to have my name cards ready. Hey! Is not a temp/part time job oK! is significant enough to earn some respect in the eyes of public. Muahahha.

Met Vin and Zen at 2pm to run some errand after my meeting.
And then went over to redhill at 3pm. HE came out of office unknowingly during office hours jus to meet me. Went over for a meal, thou he had eaten his lunch already(and he ate again wit me). He looked kinda stunned to see me wit my executive suit. Basically he went, WOW and stammered and ... muahahahha! Thats not the main focus la, but we had a good talk over our problem and this meet up was deserving! Im happy with the answer and solution about us. Just want u to know that, i appreciate u loads and ure awesome! I feel so much better after meeting u today.

4:45 a.m. - Monday, Oct. 02, 2006
=)
I had a lovable sunday, really!!
=) Had lunch wit dad, brother, bro's gf. Although is jus a simple meal at the coffee shop, it just seems sooo complete! I love them. We had a heartful talk during the meal and went "shopping" together for my mum's stuff. My mum's anniversary (according to chinese lunar calendar) is round the corner, and we as a family.. hunt for items for her. =) If only in reality, a house cost $8 and a maid cost $5. So ironic!! We definitely had a great time at the incense shop. My brother got my mum a pair of paper heels, and i chose a handsome paper male servant/driver for my mum.

Went for meeting in the late afternoon and it lasted till 8pm! Gosh!~ Took a cab down to meet my 4 darls at expo. There is a ladies carnival over at expo and based from past year experience, there is bound to be sales (initial thought). I got my butter lotion for $2 last year, which is retailing at $28 at bodyshop! U know wat i mean.. Lols. We chose to b there at the last hour/last day of the sales to avoid the crowd and also in the hope of spotting bargains. But a BIG sigh, nothing interesting thou. Darling bought a box of mooncake at a relatively cheap price. =)
Chanced by bro and his gf there too.
Today is sooooo "reunion" and complete! Im loving it.

1:14 a.m. - Sunday, Oct. 01, 2006
=(
Hey, im feeling very horrid again dear..
We really need a talk!!! U dont know what kinda emotional ride im going through right now and i need your attention badly!! I dont wana hear anymore rubbish regarding u anymore. So what am i to u? Your assurance to me seems to be losing it faith.. So am i suppose to trust u still? I know ure expecting me to have faith in you. U gonna stay by my side no matter rain or shine right? But im feeling so afraid right now.. I know im indispensable in ur life, but boy, i need more than that. Or was it because im not willing to share that leads to what it is today? Maybe u are the one who dont get the assurance from me n u feel insecured and bewildered over my actions? All these while, u have been one opening so much to me. Yet on the other hand, i appear to be sooooo ungrateful over what u have did. Tell me, whats all these now? Is it my fault for not being open up and hiding too much from u? So who is feeling unsecure, u or me? Im getting so tired of it really. It is draining me off sooo much.. I have soo much to say yet when we are facing each other, u just blew me off my knees just like that. I know i mean alot to u, ur love surround me so closely, and that itself hurt me even more. Just read some where that Aquarius and Gemini fought closely and both tie the winners of being the "Most Compatible" horoscope in pairing up a Libra. Isnt it sooo coincidence? And ure indeed sooo fortunate to have the best of everything. Since both tie as a winner, means there wont be "either or" kinda choice right? U have already picked "BOTH". Im getting so stressed up over u for the past 2 days.. U have put me in a difficult position which clamp me up unintented. Tell me what to do please.. Finally a =(, till u pick me up.

1:34 a.m. - Saturday, Sept. 30, 2006
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Im in my executive suit with blazer today. Met Nick by chance at the pantry this morning, and he went.. " WOW, u look simply gorgeous today, im serious! Lunch shall we?"
My replied to him:"GO AWAY!"
Lols, think im having my usual mood swing yet again! *RAWR* And why did i answer that to him in this manner? Sigh, is a director's godson dear..
A quick bio of NICK. 22 gg 23/rich bachelor/driving BMW/director's godson/define looking/branded top to toe/those that will make girls ogle at.
I heard this from that young lady from my next table.. office KPO!! She sent me his pict she snapped it from her camera hp, hoping i will be excited over this idiot. TO me, he is jus another idiot who got lotsa pattern to show to girls. It just dosent appeal well to me in any way. Sigh, such moroon in office is simply useless la.

Im feeling not good.
Thats bad.. Is getting so wayyyyy off and i sensing something sooo bad. U really make me wana puke. YOUR hp is wit me, ass!!! U mus have knew it that ive read those sms, and saw everything in there. Give me some time to recover from my shock.. Ok, im now trying to assure myself this.. which is already bad enough. Is a hint my dear, im getting sick of it!

12:17 a.m. - Friday, Sept. 29, 2006
=)
today(thurs):
Woke up at 11am and went to see doc. Apparently im feeling sick after a "blasting" night yesterday. Blood pressure normal, but low blood count aka Anaemia.
Ok this explains my Tan Tock Seng checkup weeks back and had 4 bottles of blood test. Needle pierced through my vein, and that goes my 4 bottles of blood. Low blood count still wana collect that 4 bottles precious blood of mine, gosh! Result for the blood test will only b out next month, so dont bug me for the result til next month pls.

Back to today, my blood count level reported to be extremely low. Im feeling nausea, weak, fatigue, numbness, anxiety, breaking into cold sweat etc. They are jus symptoms of Anaemia. Had hormonal pills prescribed by specialist, which in turn makes me feel even weaker. Hormonal pills are meant to regulate blood count and female cycle and it increases heart beat. Oh, these hormonal pills are meant for contraceptive purposes too. Out of the point lar, but woah.. Since hormonal pills weaken a female, then of cos will immune a female with low sex drive, leading to lesser frequency of sex, achieving the aim of contraceptive? Ok whatever, random thought!

Im off today. Phewww! I just had to cancel my tuition.. Im leading a "sleeping, awake, feeling so gross, puking non stop, then sleep, awake, trembling, sleep" kinda cycle.
Dont wana worry my dad, so just told him im having a headache and locked myself in the rm. Is a lonely, sick day.. Awwwww! That HE, didnt know about my condition. Anyway, i always seem sooo "FINE" infront of him. Im having my relapse today cos of U!!! DArn! Ure sooo busy what, and dont think u will care to bother abt me for the time being. tsk tsk tsk.
is a lonely lonely weak sickly day! but im still able to twitch a smile everytime i think of u.. is enough la.

3:13 a.m. - Thursday, Sept. 28, 2006
=)
Met him. Muacks! =)
He's promoted and has transferred over to marketing's dept. No wonder he's freaking busy with functions and event these days! Barely 10/9/8/7 of suspense, im already now a PR executive and he's head of marketing dept.

Nice one.. We are climbing up our world of empire - just that we are in different industry field. Thank goodness, nevertheless, we still have our biz thats called our own. Is heartwarming seeing we both fighting bravely, claiming derserving thrones out there in our field of interest. And there we are, on the other side claiming glory together for our biz. =)

On a sadder note, he is terribly busy with his new post. Which also means, he got lesser time for me from now on.. Boohoohoo! I dont like!!

He's rallying for part timers for his upcoming event in hotels around orchard. $7/hr including meal. NOTE: NO CHIO BU! (i said one!) text me if anyone is interested. I repeat, no pretty babe pls.

10:19 a.m. - Wednesday, Sept. 27, 2006
=)
Few things to do this week in office.
-creating website
-find a domain and web hosting server
-appointments
-finish up my media list
-get prepared to meet a CAUCASIAN director from MNC.
-business suit with blazer

Few things to do for my biz
-creating website AGAIN!
-find a domain and web hosting server AGAIN!
-search for potential clients
-look for more market
-think of ideas to maximise profit

Personal level
-sleep more
-No more shoppings
-NO more drinkings
-No more meeting of friends except des.

Him
-wanna meet u really really really soon. Damn! i miss u sooo much, is been 10/9/8/7 days since we last met. Who ask us to be sooo busy. Sorry for pretending that i dont care, sorry for not being sensitive over ur feelings, sorry for pushing u too much. Think i have hurt u by acting this way.. Ok i will be good, that only applies when u have the time for me!

11:40 p.m. - Sunday, Sept. 24, 2006
=)
I have been neglecting this blog seriously! Well, i dont see a need to blog anymore.. cos my life has come to an interesting point where is beyond words that can describe.!! =) Anyway, an update of myself to assure u guys im still kicking alive..

-Im currrently working as an intern in an "Event and intergrated marketing advertising" firm. Working in an adverising and media firm has been a dream come true. Im shocked and splendidly gratified to be in part of this working field!
Why am i working when i dont even need to?? Im just tooo bored, and i cant stand lying around rotting while the whole world is busy working. I like to be enriched and be productive! Working hours 9-2pm as and when i like. =) Learning has never be sooo fun.
At the age of 18, no more silly job that does not allow u to maximise ur growth. Is time for something more challenging and allow room for u to nurture and explore ur talent and niche. At least this scope allows me to make decision and being heard! Yes, all eyes are on me and every proposal i draw up is significant.
In layman's term, SALESGIRL/any related part time job just eeeeeks me alot!

-My Business has been peaking marvellously. It has come to a point where im earning $ while not being physically there working for it. Read more Business books and u will understand what im talking. =P

-Regular meetings with darls and i love them to crazy bits.
Latest INSIDER joke in town. They wanted me to write this down here! Gosh!
Me confidently "THATS AN ANT!!!"
CAUCASIAN Exclaimed "THATS A SPIDER! Spider has 8 legs"
Darls LAUGHING THEIR HEADS OFF.
Me "Of course i know! i was joking with them!" referring to darls.
Darls went "PUI" *eyes rolling*
ME (blushing, cos i really didnt realise thats a spider. Quickly walked off cos soooo malu!)
Darls cant stop laughing for the next hour.
ME pissed!

-Family ties! My dad apologised to me. He put down his pride just to apologise to me. Im moved, i love him still as long as he dont let me down again. My bro rocks! We used to curse and swear at each other hoping one will die soon! Lols, didnt expect we have come this far, appreciating each other longing in this house. =) Every little words of care and concern, every actions by them just simply sooooooooo SEDUCING! What a word to use man.. Muahahah

-I refused his invitation to work in his company since i wana learn something more in depth. Depending on others is useless, and learning nothing at the end of the day is worse off.

-Im surrounded with many great people of great endeavors. Finally, ive gotten rid of buckets of bums, and refurnish my life with a group of people who knows what they want is life! Looking around me, WOW Isnt that wonderful? No more weeds, no more thorns. Is jus so clean with no nonsense. Im motivated and driven and of great passion. Great passion over what?? Over everything in life! Please please please, may my life stay in place like this forever. Is just toooo wonderful and sooo sparkly clean to be true! Awwwwwww. Quality over quantity!

-Tuitions. Im still stuck wit those 5 kiddies! Most are having oral exams this week, and compo exams next week. Which means more tuitions=more income! Hohohoho

-Time management.. yes i suck at it, and im learning to have good time management. I just need to be alittle more discipline! So how did i cope these days? 9-2pm (work as an intern), 2-7pm (tuitions), 7pm onwards (dating, shopping, or business related). Soooo busy huh!! But no complains.

-Him, Ahem.. I know this gonna be rowdy. Gonna strike another rave of hatred against me and him all over again. Darls have been one protestors hating him sooo much! But yeah, darls finally accepted him.. They met, and im glad darls didnt have any much outburst confrontation with him.
After 5 months of suspense, it seems like ure falling deeper into me. One idiot song aired on class 95 in his car "i will always love u-by whitney huston" just kill it straight.
This time round the feeling is sooo way different compared to where we last parted. Is jus like knowing each other all over again, accepting each other once again. The feeling is really nice. At least we are more open about everything now, and i know u have fall deeper and deeper in me. I dont know, it feeels weird, somehow.

YOU: "Dont leave me again, promise?" Im touched, but i cant promise u anything. Cos i dont love u as much as u do love me. Im not cheating u in anyway, u should know that i will leave u once a better man comes along. But i can promise u one thing, the day when im gona leave u. Im sure i will be smiling, and u.. will be smiling saying that last goodbye too! YOU is a pillar of strength, a companion, a lover, a listener, an everything of mine. Thanks for picking up this role again and bring me along by ur side. Not forever i know, but at least for now, happy is the key! We gonna make this a non regretted one right? Others gave me away barely, n u pick me up in a haste! Ure definitely not a better one of all choices, but i see my worth in u still. Enjoy the moment boy. Muacks!

2:23 a.m. - Friday, Sept. 15, 2006
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Went for tuitions yesterday(wed) and the security guard at the private mansion over my student place went..
"Good morning teacher!" Me: "Morning!" Now, i understand the meaning behind each greeting. That simple good morning just ... softens heart! Moreover, it was 9am in the morning.
Had numerous tuitions till 3pm and went home to sleep.
Got my results!!! SP peeps got their results too. Joel texted me like siao askin me go MOS celebrate tomorrow.
No supp this semester, nice result u wont expect from eileen. Applause please. =)
After tuition, went home and tried catching a wink. It wasnt a pleasant wink eventually, got utterly disturbed by calls and calls and sms non stop the whole of my evening and night.
Basically, everyone who called went...
OMG RESULTS, typically u know..

Met him just now(thurs), but u make me say this right now. U sux alot! Why couldnt u be more considerate? Everyone is telling me that i shouldnt shed a tear for u anymore, cos u simply just not worth it. Sadly, i teared again! Why again????

If we have a chance to go into a time machine, lets set the time to exactly one year back at 2.23am on this exact day.. I remember till this day, vividly..My mum.
We sent her to the hospital at 14sept 10.30pm. We waited for her at the emergency room outside, with a heavy heart. Doctor came over asking us to prepare for the worse. Hearing the news, I stood outside her room, weeping bitterly non stop, looking at her lying in bed over there. I could picture it soo clearly up till today. She was there, her blood pressure was low, heart beat was weak. Every breath she took was full of struggle. How i wish, i could take over her place, and im the one suffering in there for her.
Right at this time last year, i stood by her, warming her hand, hugging her, stroking her head, kissing her cheek and telling her how much i loved her really. I knew she heard me, she teared thou she was uncouscious. I just couldnt bear to leave her, i know she was feeling sooo scared deep inside. She knew she was leaving, and she was scared. My brother at that point was shaken in tears, and my dad was standing at the door in a state of shock. Scanning everyone's expression, how i wish all that wasnt true... At this point in writing, i could not type any further...

3:10 a.m. - Wednesday, Sept. 13, 2006
=)
Met up darling rei today.(tues)
Had been awhile since i last catched up with her. SP starting school in 2 weeks time,awww Sad. Decided to shop at suntec today and helly after walking through citylink, we could not enter Suntec through the usual entrance using the escalator. The policemen directed us to Marina Sq first in order to go over to suntec.
Walked past MacDonald at marina Sq, saw that usual face and got treated AGAIN by that manager Tir. =)
Finally when we reached the entrance of Suntec from Marina Sq after 15mins, we saw another "ROAD BLOCK" by the policemen. Sigh, we had to use another route that took us another 20 mins walking under the hot sizzling sun, climbing staircases up and down like MAZE, crossing roads and so on just to reach suntec!! Gosh.
Is my worst journey to Suntec ever.

Ok, but it wasnt that worse off after all. Suntec was sooooooooo Souless today. We did our usual shopping spree there, but today was special, cos the place was really souless! Except for armed policemen patrolling around(they looked more like shopping,really!), was hard to spot any shoppers. The feeling was kinda shiok as if the whole mall open just for us to shop. IS definitely one fuss-free shopping experience with no crowd to beat. SHiok!

Went over to pizza hut and had our lunch. The crews there were half dead. Cos they seemed bored to death. The foodcourt was empty with stall vendors yawning away.
I love such quiet afternoon having a layback time with her, while the outside world of ours were frantically busy working blah blah blah. Yes, and there we were, the both of us, in a quiet indulgence of the whole mall, having our usual high tea session and so on.. Oh mine, this is life!!

We love such peace, really! Im glad to have her around enjoying this afternoon with me. Is a special and momentful afternoon despite the hassle of walking over to Suntec. =)

Left Suntec and headed to Orchard. Decided to drop by Balcony for a drink when Su called :"I saw u!! Taitai, where u heading to? sooo free hor."
Me:"of course, Taitai like me dont have to work. Im heading to Balcony, wana join us?"
Su:"Rich la, fine! Having break now, next time la."
Muahahah, sad! At balcony, surprisingly.. We saw Jas!! Oh mine, Jas working at Balcony!! Wolf whistling.**

Had one shot of absolute vodka, and one shot of long island tea. Rei had pink lady and we shared a jug of beer.At the end of the day, it billed up to $70 for 3 hours long drink at balcony. And the bill was on JAS!!! Jas paid all our drinks, So nice huh. Was supposed to join the rest at Zouk but arghh, couldnt hold myself longer and headed home. Our night ends young at 9pm.

This is the lifestyle of Taitai(S)

1:20 a.m. - Tuesday, Sept. 12, 2006
=)
You are perfect in my eyes.
U have blew me off my knees tonight.
Would u just STOP treating me soooo....
Im melting already..
Muacks! =)

11:54 p.m. - Sunday, Sept. 10, 2006
=)
I have a weird fetish i confess. Im attracted to guys who will blush!! Awwwww sooooo cute! Dont ask me why, my heart will miss a beat when they do blush. Dont u think so that when a man blush, they are actually very sincere yet shy yet sincere yet shy to u at that spark in time? *giggling
So please.. If u blush easily, just stay away from me okay.

Today is such a gloomy day. Raining the whole day.. which makes me feel soooo lathargic. Utterly spoiled my plan in going simpang for supper!! Cos of such bad weather, im famished now! Thanks huh. Stayed home the whole day today catching shows, reading books and chatting with him!

I miss him! cant wait to meet him tomorrow. =) OHHHHHH, he do blush easily too, and very often he does that. That explains why isnt it.. *smirks

This whole week will be a busy week. I have 4 invitations to various clubs. Tues- Zouk. They allow anyone above 16 to enter!
Wed- Momo ladies night free flow
Thurs- Joel invited me to MOS
Friday- Sentosa beach partying
Lets see if i will go.

10:56 p.m. - Saturday, Sept. 09, 2006
=)
Have been busy with business and more businesses! Moreover, my new business is coming up, so is no surprise to see me cracking my head intensely these days.

Yeah, my brother is back from Taiwan this morning at 2am.
I love him toooo bits!! He rox my life la.. But i love the stuff he brought back more. Oppps!

Things he bought for me include:
-Authentic VOODOO lUCKY CHARM
Shall do a brief description of this. Unlike the local one that is seen in minitoons, the one my bro bought from Taiwan is sooo much smaller in size and cost about 10sgd for one tiny voodoo. According to him, this is an authentic one, which can really works its charm! Hahahha, so cute. Is sooo much cuter than the voodoo i got it from minitoons with louis and zen.
The previous voodoo charm i got for myself was a LOVE charm, and now my brother got me a SUCCESS charm! My lovely bro got for dad a prosperity charm. Cute! I love voodoos cos they can grow! =)

-RED WINE FACE MASK
This is sooo nice of him. The red wine face masks are really expensive. U cant find them in local store. I know, cos my bro gf's from taiwan. And now, he added my new collection of face mask. I still got a few boxes of Neutrogena face mask and Loreal face whitening mask lying safely in my wardrobe. Surprisingly those face mask are pass down from my brother after he enters NS. So this explains my radiant glowing complexion despite me using less often now.. They are well MASKED since young u know. Have to blame my bro for such "treats", cos he was a freaking vain chap who used female beauty products in those poly days of his, and me.. still in my sec school days. He knows it well how toner and moisturizer should be used. What egg white and aloe vera can do to the skin and hair and whitinening effect etc.. So cool isnt it? Sadly after entering NS, oh mine.. no more such nonsense from him, and his ONCE stunning image of him huh, aiyoyo!

-CHOCOLATE HARD LIQOUR
This makes u feel like in cloud nine. Woahh! Im serious, i tried that just now. SHIOK! It jus makes u feel like drinking it again and again. A mixture of chocolate and alcoholic, woah... Ive never tasted anything like this before. Muacks i like tht alot. He bought me that whole big bottle and i hide them safely in my room in a secret place. Evil of me huh..

The rest of the stuff he brought back are mooncake, muahchee and taiwan delicacies. My utmost favourite of all... Taiwan jelly! Yes, im a great fan of jellies, especially fruit jellies. Not many knew about this craving of mine.. And now u know, hahahah!

**Is really nice holding u back again. May we cherish each other till the last second of us depart. Im well loved, but not by someone else better. But is good enough to have u by my side sheltering for me.

2:03 a.m. - Wednesday, Sept. 06, 2006
=)
I cant believe it!!!!
Whats going on AGAIN between the both of us?
It dosen't matter anymore,
Cos u still... And we still...Haiyoyo!! =)

3:15 a.m. - Tuesday, Sept. 05, 2006
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Ok i understand whats all this turtle is all about now. Just saw a pic of Steve with a gigantic tortise(turtle)

My brother is a real freak fan of the reality show on discovery channel n all those scientific clips. hmmm =/
I remembered him getting amazed by Steve Irwin's crocodile show when he was younger, and we were always fight for the remote control as he wanna tune in to those discovery channel and me wana catch my HK drama serials.

I miss my brother, he is miles away in Taiwan. Speaking of Taiwan, shilin chicken cultet and Jacky Wu just pops in my head!!
What a sudden change of topic huh.

12:26 a.m. - Monday, Sept. 04, 2006
=(
Tuition on sat's morning, went home sleep and out in the evening to check out prices(offers) at COMEX sales with darl. Ooooo, met many familiar faces there workin part time.. =P
Went Simpang for dinner/supper after that. While feasting, we surprisingly came out with new business venture to explore. That sudden unexpected idea jus strike off and left us in a whole load of excitement!
Talking with no action is useless, and so, a decision is made and now, we are embarking to mould this into a reality of ours.
While on my way home, had a call from louis.. Shared with him my excitement, the anticipation of this whole new business concept. He finds our idea great! Hooray, is nice knowing that people love ur idea and think it gonna work.

Called darl at 2am after putting down the phone wit louis and we chatted for another 3 hours over our new business.
Dad came home at 5am and something not-so-pleasant happened, it irks me lots and got me all pissed up.
Dad, u hurt your girl so much..

Woke up this afternoon(sun) and headed to bishan and then to COMEX sales. The last hour buy was definitely a catch! The prices dropped drastically as expected, and so we made our purchases today at the last 10 mins of the sales. Yesterday racky was just to note down on the items availability, items location and prices, you see..
Total damage at the COMEX sales: $120.
Total savings cos we waited till last min: $40

11:20 p.m. - Friday, Sept. 01, 2006
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I have toooo much of rantings these days and im just on a boo boo level in my mood's meter. However, would make this a happy post... Cos Exam is over!

phewww, finally! Done with LAIT. As quoted by myself right after the paper "Who gonna fail this paper is an idiot!"
Why such remarks, so arrogant huh?? =X U know, is an open book test, and everything is FLIP BOOK-ANSWER-CTRL C-CTRL V kinda thing. Any idiot who gonna fail today's paper gonna prove one thing, COPYING is a harsh task! *smirks. But argghh, time is so dear precious and i bet most people couldnt COPY finish in time. Is definitely the most effortless paper in my poly life, and wana see my taggingss? Ive got my book elaborately tagged with colorful tapes!! Woahh, super short cut and is so fun.. I love my elaborate taggings! So kiasu+kiasi! Do it the typical singaporean way.

Supposed to pass Kokyau a heartshape cake and a oh-sooo-cute teacher's day card after exam today but awwww, he wasnt in. And so left it in the fridge and left him a buzz asking him to take them when he is back. He replied with "Thanks, Im soo touched. Moved to tears already. Thanks alot!"
OMG SOOOOOOO nice and appreciated of him!! Can u imagine he actually left a sms right after our DBIS paper asking me if the paper is OK. So nice of a poly tutor! Thumbs up, no i mean 2 thumbs up for him! =) Without him, DBIS gonna be a real gonecase for a DBIS idiot(me).

Lunched wit louis and we chanced upon one hot guy with great body built, tight abs in his white lyrca tight fitting (see through,alittle translucent) tee. Woah, his built soooo super seductive and sleazy and were making our imagination running wild on fire. SOOOO appealing to us, like wana rip its top off immed, but wait wait wait a minute.... His his his his face just turned us soooooo WAY off! That sudden turn off jus snapped back us to reality in no time! Sigh, life is always unfair. GREAT BODY=NO LOOKS and vice versa. SAD! I admit, LOUIS IS SOOOO TURN ON(HORNY) BY HIS BODY. Is just so luring and tempting to just grab a bite of him. That's louis(me,louis,me,louis) opinion! Phewwww* Catching a breath.

Up next for this coming holiday(lookin forward hot stuff)..
-Wana meet EUG everyday cos i miss him.
-Visit my mum once a week cos i miss her
-Work in Macdonalds cos of commitment
-Driving basic/advance test
-SPA+GYM+JACUZZI at Aranda Country C.
-Meet Randell, Roger, Lawrence, Marcus, Shawn and Joel cos im tooooo bored.
-Work in Desmond's Company as his temp secretary!!
-Tending to my ever first "dreamcometrue" on 23sept (details will be disclose again)
-Club hopping from MOX to HAPPYHOUSE to ZOUK and then to DXO and then MOMO on ladies night wit Darls.
(WOoah, is been eons since we last stepped into one. Those were the chionging days la..=X im afraid u girls couldnt make it since A's coming. Nevermind the poly kakis shall go)
-Meeting siu cos for shoppings!
-Chionging sales and more sales
(pending sales, COMEX,TRIUMPH WAREHOUSE SALES,FOREVER 21 WAREHOUSE SALES all gonna held next week)
-Business trip (Pending-may or may not)
-Read finish all my 18 books.
-Earn my next ____ amount during the holi wit my biz.
-Wana study and observe the stockmarket
-Wana lunch at CARTEL wit *Rawring* louis n Zen cos i love them.
-Wana give Des a surprise cos i promised him one.
-Wana catch finish all my 11 movies in my comp
-Breakfast at ECP with _______ (no avail names yet)
-Go KL with _________ (no avail name yet)
-Wana sleep with.. .. MYSELF moreeee!
-Play under the rain wit Eug cos he promised me that.
-Wana love ___________ (no avail NAME yet) =)

Something im dreading to during holiday..
-Tan Tock Seng appt 15/9
-When holi gets too bored.
-Going back to school knowing that im in for SUPP PAPER. NONNO!!

And lastly, HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to me! Remember? im a proud tutor of 5 kids. =)

4:53 p.m. - Thursday, Aug. 31, 2006
=(
I woke up in tears again. Is still haunting me! Counselling aint helping and it is making things worse by rubbing old wounds up again. Why must i fall so badly everytime im tryin hard to pick myself up? It is still haunting me, i feel so scared, so helpless, and a sense of bitterness. Every drop of tears is filled with its unexplainable sorrow. A sorrow that she is going through alone. Author is crying uncontrollably while typing this post.. Just let me go please,stop haunting me.

11:00 p.m. - Wednesday, Aug. 30, 2006
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Yawwwwn, im sleepy!
Yesterday's MAFIT wasnt that difficult. Ive practised all the qns numerous time last week so they arent that alien to me, and were solve-able, which is good! So the answer is to purchase or to produce? Hmmm im definitely on the outsourcing side! Whatever it is, is over. =)

Is been raining the whole day today and it jus making me drowsy. Gosh, my bed is calling me. Night paper for EBM today! All i can say is, is managable. School counsellor wana see me today, so headed down to school at noon. He posted a qns to me "Do u think u can promote to next semester and why?"
My reply to him, "Definitely, business is my passion!"
Woah, cant imagine that i actually said that. Yes is my passion, but i fail to tell him that.. studying is not!

Last paper to chiong and im gonna be free!!! Lait on friday! One more to go, just one more!!

10:55 p.m. - Monday, Aug. 28, 2006
=)
Fri's paper was a breeze. Appt with Kokyau on thursday really paid off! Phewww. Qns predicted on thursday all came out.. Thou is kinda very last minute to study those stuff only on thursday, but a real sigh of relief! =)
Called Zen early that morning to test her on data redundancy and there it is, it came out in the QNS!!

Sat n Sun was a falling sick day. Did nothing but to idle at home. Feeling so guilty that i hardly touch any of my study materials and ended up sleeping my whole weekend.

Feeling charged, woke up at 2.30am wit the wakeup call from vin on monday morning.. And started chionging pom.
Started panicking when i thought of a few qns that i dont know how to answer! Did the ridiculous thing by calling up everyone up at 6plus 7am, in the search of getting the answer for the qns. Only Vin answered my call and he got himself lucky by evaluating all the qns wit me!
Muahahah, forced him to flag a cab down from his place to pick me up at my place first before heading to school via cab together. Dont get me wrong, i just wana save the morning peak charges thats all! The rewarding part is.. ..
The answers we evaluated for the qns ive spotted came out all. A whoopy deserving 50-60marks in total!! Yes is a dear 50-60 marks!!! My intuitive is working its charm sooooo well. For that 50-60 marks of the well prepared qns and ans, as long as i didnt screw it up by reasoning and arguing my facts wrongly, i would have score a fairly nice grade for POM. Ive master a new set of memorising technique too. They are darn amusing and hilarious and OMG, they really works!!! How i love my VEM4C,FBIQ,RAID,BackDoor.. They are just like a davinci code.

The skills of leadership... We shall use VEM4C to break it!
V-visioning,
E-empowering,
M-managing groups & conflict,
M-Managing powering,
M-Managing diversity,
M-Motivate
C-Communicating.
FBIQ- (f* bloody idiot queen). This is used to break the mystery of CONTROLLING SYSTEM, since the QUEEN needs to have her "system" in controlling!
F-financial control
B-budgetary control
I-inventory control
Q-quality control
RAID is used to break the mystery of the role of controlling.
R-reducing risk
A-adopt changes
I-Identifying opportunity
D-detecting errors.
And BackDoor stands for bueurectical and decentralised.

The fact that the paper is over, and all the above are still fresh in my head! So how did i create such nonsense? thanks to my last minute studying guide! Im lovin it!!! I spent less than 15 mins memorising the codes down and Vin only started memorising the codes ive prepared in the cab.
We were still joking that we gonna laugh our heads off if the above codes gonna help us in cracking the qns. And OMG!!!!! Surprisingly, our morning efforts paid off. And ure lucky to pick up the phone in the morning!!
Not forgetting all the POM exam papers. To those that ive sent to via email and u bother to check, u guys must be laughing ur heads off now!!! The MCQ all from there! But sad to say, i didnt memorise the MCQ ones.

So what's the catch?? LOOK out for morning calls from eileen. They are formidable! =)
Studying is getting so fun, im getting into the mood. I would love to see the miracles in MAFIT and EBM tooo!!!

7:23 p.m. - Thursday, Aug. 24, 2006
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My confession: I love kokyau, and i know he loves me too! =)

Coursework grades all beyond my expectations! Woah, im no longer html nor pea brain okay.

Im extremely tired. Had 24 hours of marathon studying. My brain is getting too sored! Gonna catch spore idol result show, and then catching Norman on chnl 8, and pending supper at Simpang and lastly to bed. Bro left for Taiwan on NS field trip, his gf heading to Korea for miss world compeitition. BORING!!

Gotta do housework now before catching my shows! im a good girl.
Ur confused actions jus make me soo sick!

12:39 a.m. - Thursday, Aug. 24, 2006
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Exhaustion is the word, stress is a sub word, grouping by, falling sick and innerjoin with a spinning head;

Too much of studying makes u sick. What's more? Had a fiery argument jus now which leave me in tears. Have been surviving with cup noodles and minimal sleeps these days. Popping pills are just one of another thing.

I need more focus and concentration. I need more understanding n encouragement from people. I need to be pampered! I need surprises! I need a good meal! i need a good sleep! i need his attention, his care, his everything, but i got none of it back!

Once a precious gem, now a stranger to be..I dont like u!

Study.

Exam tips for Lait----Adapted from Vbus, msg from subject head. LolsS!
"Please remember that law subject is a technical subject - more like science than art. Do not think you need only to learn some headings or keywords and you can use your common sense to sweet talk. Every argument must be relevant and based on known legal rules (and not rules imagined by you). There is still a difference between legal skill and salesmanship."

3:45 a.m. - Monday, Aug. 21, 2006
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Enough of din, sorry for making u guys worry. I will take good care of myself.. And no, im not grieving upon my mum!! Is just that im going through some serious prob and i jus wana confide and pour out everything. But no one i could trust other than her, no one understands me more than she do. And the thought of it just perks a very emptiness in it. Feeliing so crippled and helpless, i jus wana talk to her and tell her everything.

Sigh, dont mention it anymore. So stop beating around the bush and getting on my nerves. The best remedy is still, running away from reality. Isnt it a better way sometimes? Yes indeed im tired in pretending, but still.. crying too much and brooding over too much will quicken in ageing n is bad for health. Just bear with me when im in tears, when u see no reason why will i be in tears for. Well, she has a story going on inside and she is just stubborn to share. Dont ask me why. I just dont like relying on anyone, for fearing that one day there's dismiss, there's depart, there's goodbye and oh mine, i cant imagine how am i gonna survive in that scenario. Because of this fear, im trap in a situation, a condition that i fear to love someone wholeheartedly, to be commited to someone and end up getting so hurt wit wounds everywhere. So tell me, is relying or trusting someone a good thing? Not anymore right. When it begin, it should have last forever. When i begin, im expecting it to last forever, but if im reluctant to even begin it in the first place, how am i gonna make it a forever one?

Contradicting right.. Sadly nothing is forever, or ive yet to see the meaning of it. Maybe is time for me to go over to some temple up the hill in which ever mountain and start searching for "forever" through meditation and enlighten. To chim already huh, till i dont know wat am i spouting right now. Why not u come and show me whats forever is all about? Lols, but as i say earlier on, is hard to gain any trust in anyone. Only when i commit, then there's trust. But im confute to commit, so there wont be trust. The fear of losing someone further cripple u to commit, and there goes a dumb vicious cycle all over again.

Conclusion: im afraid to love=trust=commit(in any form of related relationships, with no specification to any) Wait till ive come across someone who have the guts to show me, whats commitment=love=trust is all about. Is no surprise to see me hopping from one to the other every now and then. As an outsider point of view, it means flirting, playgirl, not serious, unstable whatever.. Is just that i cant sense the kind of commitment=love=trust in u which makes me jumping on to the next, bearing the hope that one day the right candidate do exists.. But once commit, it gonna be forever, or something which i will make an effort in making an everlasting one. Hmmm, Am i spouting nonsense again? Correct me if im wrong. Lols. Human being tends to neglect or choose not to acknowledge all these and wander their life flamboyantly not knowing what they r searching for. Maybe being ignorant and naive is a blessing? hmmm, too much of a case, we ended up ourselves acting or pretending like one, even in my case. We pretend to love=commit=trust and ended up getting wounds everywhere. Ouch!

Does today's post give a very different perspective point of eileen?Very in-depth or too chim to understand? She seems so stranger of a usual self right.. Is good to just give a reality check on ourselves once in awhile u know. But this is not the reason for me feeling so horrid, there's more to it la, which i dont see a need to elaborate it here.
Ok, today(sunday).. Started my day with me studying abit, and then calling kezia n Vin up making sure they r awake, so that they can giving morning calls to the rest. Celebrated Vin's 18th birthday, feast at Sakura. Awwww, many dishes missing. So sad! Is a pleasing time of catching up cum talk cock cum enjoying their company session. Enjoyed! Went to shop around wit the rest while reading sms that des was on his way to town to meet me and Joel(urm, urm) was nearby. Met neither both and decided to head home to study.

1:31 a.m. - Sunday, Aug. 20, 2006
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I woke up this morning finding myself in tears! I couldnt sleep well the whole night.. Many unexpected things have happen n im sooo afraid to fall asleep again. It makes thing worse when i could not bear to close my eyes on bed. Everything is changing, but i still finding myself standing put at that same exact position, in tears.
All of a sudden, i dont know why, the name of mum keeps ringing in my head. I know the people around want me to stay strong. For whatever reason it is, I would love too and im trying. But still, many things have happen soooo fast that i could hardly catch a breath.
Well, studying is a good source to numb it, but it aint gonna work forever.. That tears just keep flowing. Drop by drop, it hurts so much emotionally. I could no longer take it anymore. Mum, why didnt u bring me along too. I got soooo many things that i wana confide to u. Im going through alot right now, and i only want to share it with u!!! Im feeling sooooo horrid. I wana run away, run away from the reality. Be it death or anything.. i jus wanna avoid the truth, and everthing of it. Will u save me from my sorrow?? Im seriously in a state of unconsciousness, in a state that im in pain, in real deep pain, and it hurts just so much to bear anymore. Looking around me, i feel lonely. No one understands, cos i didnt give them a chance to anyway. I find it hard to share, i find no trust, no faith in anyone including myself. Everyone's busy with their own lives, their own interest at heart. Human nature is getting too ugly for me to understand. I dont want to understand it either, is just too inhuman to accept. Im tired and soooo sick! May i have a shoulder to cry on, to throw all that im going through right now to u. Is there anyone who wana hear me out and will understand the situation im in?? Is hard for me to accept any humans again. I hate myself, i hate myself for who i am, i hate those around me. I just wana keep it to myself. I just wana get away quick and fast, hiding away and keeping myself faraway eternally.
That eileen moro will still be putting on a bravefront. I dont wana worry anyone at this point in time. U guys dont want to have a burden too, in what im carrying myself wit!

12:22 p.m. - Friday, Aug. 18, 2006
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SSobs!
Everything went way wrong today.
Everything seems to go out of control and i feel soooo helpless, soooo lonely, soooooo sad.

1:45 a.m. - Friday, Aug. 18, 2006
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Woke up late(thurs), went to sch to meet Vin, and then met Zen for lunch accompanied wit Vin and then to tuition and lastly home!

i feel loved! For the negative side.
My hair is freaking standing. Yucks!
I hate JOEL!

Just for laugh, to lighten things up:
Pending of 2 weddings..
Justin & Zenith
or maybe,
Joel & Eileen
or maybe BOTH!
Vincent gonna be in-charge in recruiting brides/grooms maids. =D
So sweeeeeeet huh this couple, Justin to Zen "Nites, baobei."

1:37 a.m. - Thursday, Aug. 17, 2006
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I dont like diaryland. My last post did not show up!!! But everything looks fine now, so catch up with my last post too. Anyway, i still prefer using livejournal, they r more advanced and they allow mobile(sms) blogging. So cool isnt it. =/

Yesterday(tuesday)was a memorable one. Had tutorial in the morning, had 2 hours break, decided to head down to polyclinic. Mind u, i was really really really ill this time round. And i hereby officially announce, im diagnoise with anemia.
I am referred to TTSH for further evaluation in Sept. Sighs, everthing will be fine i hope. Couldnt be bother much la, and headed back to school again for lab after visiting the clinic.

Went over Novena for a discussion focus group at 4pm. Interesting discussion topic that i adore and love doing: Shopping!!!! An attractive $50 reward so why not right. Moreover, is my forte when it comes to talking(crapping)... Had much fun with 5 other strangers(girls) discussing about the latest mall in town. Apparently im the youngest while those girls are all in either in NUS,NTU,La Salle,SIM. I seriously did enjoy myself =) The discussion was extended till 7.30pm instead of the 7pm that was told.

To make things worse, i got a date with desmond at tiongbahru at 7.30pm!! Couldnt make it in time, and im already so so soooo late. Rang him up at 7.30pm and he drove all the way to toapayoh to meet me for my convenience sake. Had dinner wit him, and phewwwwwwww, astonishing conversation!
Thanks dear. For whatever reason, i only have a word, thanks! =D

Today (wed)
Had my usual morning tuition, headed to school for lect. Had a real feast for lunch wit 2 voodoos! No qualm that it was really hilariously fun, silly and insane over the conversation we had.
Hear me roar. "rawr"

Headed home to settle some stuff, while waiting for louis to drop by my place for some errands. Caught red handed by my dad while we were walking from my home to tampines mart. Omg! As expected, got questioned over that "yandao"(adapted from louis himself) when im back home. My dad did not trust me still, over this guy at my neighbourhood under the broad day light. Who ask u soooo yandao, till my dad got soooo worried over we both. muahaaha! But we are conscious-free!

Tuition in the evening again, and next to Woodlands to meet des. Somehow, the "date" didnt got through eventually. Arrghhh. Spoiler of the day!

Is been quite a while since i talk about my business here. A quick insight of my biz whereabout. It is peaking, flourishing,n im doing well NOW. thanks for all those concerns.
And where's Eug these days? We need a talk please. Hear me out first can.. =/

8:18 a.m. - Tuesday, Aug. 15, 2006
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And for Sunday!!!!
I did the most ridiculous thing in my life.. hmmmm, not that ridiculous after all, it seems like ive been doing it all my life. *smirks!
Q-ed up at 8am in the morning with darl for the booksales, thou it only opened at 9.30am! Oh dear, eileen is sick, and thats what sales is all about. U just cant get enough of the thrill and all the excitement of digging and digging and dont know whats next u gonna dig out. Anyway, when the door was opened at 9.30am, we looked back, and the Q was even longer! The crowd was magnificient. And hello, is only a Book Sales. Muahhahah
2 hours of rummaging and we got caught up with 100 books each. Darn! We covered only one quarter of the whole expo sales. The crowd was just too overwhelming by 11.30am. The crowd just keeps pouring in, feeling the heat all over, no room for movement and arrghhh.. We call it a day!!!! First, We practically threw all the books that caught out eyes in the carrier given. Total up to 100 books each from our carrier. Carrier got so heavy that we couldnt carry them around. Legs get all bruised up by knocking the carrier full of books against our legs.
After pulling the white flag to call the day off, we selected all those deserving books and made our purchase.

Here are the list of books. Good buy for $2 each..
-EQ IN BUILDING RELATIONSHIPS
-IF ONLY I'D LISTEN TO MYSELF
-BUSINESS CONFIDENCE
-CHANGE YOUR MIND,CHANGE YOUR WORLD
-WHY NOT YOU?---A POSITIVE PROGRAM FOR ACHIEVEMENT
-POWERFUL TECHNIQUES FOR POSITIVE CHANGE
-BILLIONAIRE IN TRAINING
-HOW 10% OF THE PEOPLE GET 90% OF THE PIE
-MEDITATION FOR BUSY PEOPLE
-THANKYOU FOR BEING SUCH A PAIN
-THE SMALL BUSINESS MONEY GUIDE
-HOW TO MAKE MILLIONS WITH YOUR IDEAS
-201 GREAT IDEAS FOR YOUR SMALL BUSINESS
-JUST DO IT NOW
-GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY
-SUCCESSFUL TIME MANAGEMENT

Errrr, they are all business or personal development related.
And these 2 highlights of the books ive gotten...
-LAST MINUTE STUDY GUIDE
-HOW TO WIN IN AN ARGUMENT
Lols, weird books. But they gonna b interesting i think.

Spent less than $50 on the above! *sense of pride.And why only non-fiction books u may be asking? Why? good qns, reason being, i feel that books are only worth reading when they are enriched with good infos, not fairy-tales/novel sort. Moreover, i did not have the time to scramp through the fiction area. Ok, enough of my new mini book collection from the sales. Move on to next..

After the sales, had a sumptous breakfast cum lunch together before chiong-ing my way to the airport to send princess off. Met Siu first before heading down together. Awwwww sad!
Even more hugs+tears at the airport. That was a hug+tears of 2 years, since she will only be back in 2009! *sobs. I hate such thing la, is just so... ... indescribable. It sort of remind me of myself not long ago, heading to NZ! pouts.
We gonna miss u, really!
Went home and met darl again at 4pm to study.Yes, u didnt see wrongly. WE R studying! Muahaha, im proud of myself that we have started. Furthermore, darl needs to prepare for her upcoming A leveL.
We gonna jiayou! =)

11:29 p.m. - Monday, Aug. 14, 2006
=)
Saturday was a blast!
Met both ladies, many hugs and tears and flooded memories.. What's more? Srey bought me a CHANEL wallet from USA.
OMG!!!! love this princess soooooo much!
Muacks! =)
She's started off my day with a graceful gift of hers! wahahahaha.
But i still like her christian Dior Wallet that she's using!
Although she is idiotic rich, coming from a high status royal family, She still remain's humble and ever sooooooo STINGY! Very girl-next-door, simple with no sense of arrogance, simply perfect la.. im serious!! Thanks to her define upbringing..
Salute to her mum and dad. =)

Ok, back to that day. Met her at her hotel and started our day's food trip.
-Scissors cut rice and Hokkien mee at Wisma fdcourt.
OMG the above mentioned were like 4.5 out of 5 stars. Simply Awesome la..
And their Q for both were awwwwwwww... LONG. They r real famous stores in Spore, but ive forgotten the name. Since we three had not eaten and were famished, had above 2 as appetizer before heading to the following..
-Katong laksa
-Boon Tong Kee Chicken Rice
-HagaanDaz Banana Split
These above three mentioned are situated at Katong road. Left me speechless. Ive run out of words to say, but!!!! They both rox the house.
I give 5 out of 5 stars to Katong laksa, Boon Tong Kee Chic Rice 4 out of 5 star, and for the banana split.. Nothing special to mention. But i love the ambience! Damn filling since it was less than an hour before we were at orchard feasting the two dishes above.
We 3 couldnt take it anymore, so headed down to her hotel rm and had pillow fight.
Missed out quite alot of dishes since we were simply CMI(cannot make it).
Nevertheless, it was fun and a memorable one.

To be continued.. for Sunday's Blast.

12:17 p.m. - Thursday, Aug. 10, 2006
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Dad was nearby Kovan and he fetched me home last night. Went over to eat Punggol nasi lemak and he started reminisce how he used to brought my mum and us over here to feast and asked if i still remember, and i went.. OH REALLY???!! Lols, if thats true, that must be more than 11 years ago.
Didnt fetch Srey neang from the airport but she called me in her hotel. We were on phone for 3 hours. Gosh! We will only be seeing her on Saturday or maybe friday night since my proj datelines r all on friday and for siu, her exams at NYP are coming up pretty soon! We have decided to have an Amazing food race then.

First to AMPANG Yangtaufoo, KATONG laksa and Boon Tong Kee chix rice. They are all at the stretch of katong road.

And next to Kovan chix rice and Punggol nasi lemak, which are at the heart of Kovan.

And next trip; frog porridge at geylang road.

6 dishes in a day. TIme is running out as she will be leaving on Sunday afternoon. Have to start strategising on how much time we gonna spend at each spot, the travelling time and so on..

Wait wait wait, since her hotel is behind Paragon, our last destination will be at FREE BANANA, is an outdoor pub outside Wisma. Very nice lounge singers, and whats more.. they have really momentful ambience!
No worries, i will be back with my food critics evaluation after im back with my food hunting trip.

This nick worth me a laugh.. muahhaha
The purpose of meeting is to force us to start our work to show what have we done - Tan Min Loon

According to my uncle, the main chef at chatterbox had open his own chicken rice stall at Pasir ris. Why pay $20 for a $5 one? Moreover, the standard of chatterbox are kinda BOO BOO after the main chef had left.
Shall bring darl over next week. =)

5:50 p.m. - Wednesday, Aug. 09, 2006
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Project day!
Met des at Tampines Mall, and gosh.. he drove for 2 hours before able to drive from Woodlands to tampines.
Sadistic single celled organism who have no sense of direction..
Drove me over to Kovan which takes him another hour, with me armouring the road directory and he on steer. I think the bus driver would do a better job than this.

The Projects Marathon starts now. Hohoho, and theres web casting of live ndp via its official website.
Arrgghh, I think is really time to catch anger management. I jus cant control my temper!!!! pouts!
Go away before i eat u up.
The princess's flight arrival is at 9.30pm tonight. Should i fetch her?? i dont wana piss everyone up you see.. Sigh, cheer up and smile pls!

11:00 p.m. - Tuesday, Aug. 08, 2006
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Undergoing extreme mood swing! Feeling so critics over everyone and every little thing i have come across.
Arggghhh, u can see me in tears in a minute and see me screaming and yelling and pissing everyone off jus second after im in tears, and when u didn't notice, im already laughing my heads off over that idiot who fall.
Im feeling irritated, annoyed and paranoid over everything!!!

Arent u scared?? U ought tooo!
Arrghhh.. Shooo off before i start biting/slapping u!!!

This is the sign of PMS.

Went sch for an hour of tutorial today, headed home, and then to school again at noon for lunch and home again. Then meet des in the evening at tiong bahru. Oh mine! Horrid driver he is!!!!! It seems like my life is at risk every time we are on wheels.
Phewww!!

9:39 p.m. - Sunday, Aug. 06, 2006
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Started my Sat morning with spa+jacuzzi with darl at Aranda country club @ ECP. Shiok!! Is been such a long time since i had such session with her. This is life!!!
Headed to town in the afternoon supposedly to meet des.
Me rang him up "Where u now?"
He "Home, still styling my hair, then can match my car and the girl im driving around with ma.."
Me "tsk, stop testing my patience. Ure late! forget it la"

Sigh, for goodness.. Nice excuse huh! Never ask me to wait for guys, esp on "dates". Met up su in the end. Window shop around and then headed to Simpang for dinner. Had a nasi phattaya, plaster prata and 3 cups of tek terik!! Was that alot?? *giggling*. Their food just *thumbs up*

And today, was awaken by louis at 9am for breakfast. Thanks huh.. *roll eyes* Practically dragged myself out of bed, nua my way to meet him. So thrilling (torturous, intended) to have a surprise breakfast on sunday hor.. I should feel honoured right. Yawnn!
My sundays start sharply at only 12nn. Wat a big challenge today to wake at 9am!
Breakfast menu: Cheecheongfan,carrotcake,pork porridge and ice milo. Burppppp.
Went back home after breakfast, prayed to mum and went to town to meet des in the afternoon.
Buaitahan, and im soooo sleepy now.
Time to bed. Zzzzz

1:34 a.m. - Saturday, Aug. 05, 2006
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Arent i suppose to sleep after bidding nites just now? Well, im immensely amused by 2 fools right now. Vin & Zen!

Zen+++ I will dedicate this to u!! SOMEONE IS IN LOVE!!!! muahahaha, u keeping sayin no, but ur heart is heading another way!! Denial creatureS virgos are. Im anti-virgos right now, so i will side Justin! Opps, did i mention the name?? =X Sooner or later, we will see a couple lingering around us le.When zen is in love, the world stunned in awe! Lols, enjoy the moment of courtship la..
Goosebumps!

Vin+++ Not dedicating to u la, but just a note... Suddenly ur sense of humor+dirty lewn jokes quite power huh.. Wild imagination which makes any teacher go screaming right away! Nice try!!! Not bad!!
Rimm them up in a book, and include eileen's name as eugene somewhere.

Great time laughing at this hour with 2 bumps. =)

11:39 p.m. - Friday, Aug. 04, 2006
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Hohoho, Let's play stress! Cos i am..
It seems like my 2 weeks supply of panadol(S) prescribed this morning came just in time huh. Horrid, insane doctor who gave me 2 weeks supply of Med. =/ tsk!
For a twist, Im a huge fan when it comes to relaxation and enjoying life. And so, it gonna be a spa+jacuzzi+swedish massage+whatever.i.can.think.of weekends!That's a splendid induglence! Leaving aside the torrendeous NMM sites to complete on Sunday! what's more, im gonna scrap and revamp the whole thing inside out again. TO put it simply, im gonna redo everything la. Phewwww Bless me!

Some days ago we got these mini voodoos thingy. It signifies a "study" charm for Zen,a "Luck" charm for Louis & a Love charm for Me. Lets see what these voodoos can do, they can growW!!!
*roll eyes*

To sum it up for today. Did nothing but had some appts out there with i.dont.wanna.name, and also projects and more projs!
Good night. Tuck in bed well.. and i miss u!

12:30 a.m. - Wednesday, Aug. 02, 2006
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Muahhaha, im back from Al Dente! Is an Italian restaurant at Esplanade with an extremely poshy, a touch of class and added with luxury feelings kind of restaurant. BuaiTahan! the view of the bay while dining was just *heart melt+breathtaking* =)
We had smoked salmon accompanied with a glass of red wine at the outdoor dining area under the moonlight! Thumbs up for the romantic venue, heavenly meal and tremendous night. Very touched, very honoured, very very very loved n endeared, by u. Muacks!

Lunch this afternoon(tuesday) with 11 classmates namely Zhi,Ian,Sadiq,Jit,Su,Candy,Yi,Min,Mark,Gary,Cindy.. oppo sch.
Had so much fun with their nonsenses. Headed back to school for ebm presentation. It was a success! Since we are the last group to present, the other 3 groups gathered outside the lab aka the "greenhouse". It seems as though we are suntanning under the see-through ceiling. We crapped loads and were loud to be heard. It is the first time ever that our class did really appear as a class. It was a real bonding laughing at hilarious stuff+sharing of lame+racist jokes! Many supports and "jiayouS" from everyone when each group gonna go in to present. =P They are sooo cute!
Went Dbis lab after that and left in an hour. Headed home, changed, dressed n then to Esplanade to meet des for dinner. =)
TO DO LIST: LAIT test, dbis proj (which im gonna outsourcing!). Almost there, almost there.. Hang ON!
ANNOUNCEMENT: I wana watch LAKE HOUSE and also NOW AND FOREVER!!! Anyone? if not im gonna d/l them le. pouts*

>>>>What happens when one pushes one away like no body business, while one pull the other so close so close so close to him?? So fun huh playing the ignoring game,the pushing game, the avoiding game, the hiding game, the pretending game? Sux so much!! and it hurts badly, if u dont know! I cant ask much nor anything, cos u dont care. Push me away for all you want, avoid and pretend for all i care.. Again i have to say, is this our choice? =/

2:29 a.m. - Monday, Jul. 31, 2006
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Entry will be alittle different today.
Will do a timelog of my interesting weekend. muahahah

Started it off on friday night, slept at 8pm, hoping to wake up at 4am to study for NMM test. However..

8pm-zzZZ
9pm- Hp rang.
Student called "miss tan, can i write in pink or purple pen?" Me:"arrghh. ANYTHING!" -----PISSED!

10pm- Hp rang*
su called "LETS GO SIMPANG for supper!!! WANT?" Me:" ARRGHHH, im having test moro dear!"-----PISSED!

10.15pm- Bro came home, dashed to my rm "SIS, im back! lets go eat Changi nasi lemak." Me:"Argghhh, im having test!" N i threw my pillow and shooed him out of my rm.-----PISSED!

11pm- HP rang*
Darl: "Girl, come on man, is friday night, lets go MOMO!" Me:"ARGGHH go n die, im sleeping now n im havin test moro!"-----PISSED!

11.30pm-HP rang*
Des:"dear, where u now?" Me:"HOME, ON BED, SLEEPING!"-----PISSED!

12.15am-Hp rang*
Lin:"Come online leh. We go register basic theory together now!" I hanged up the phone without saying a word -----Pissed!

There goes my hours of beauty sleep on Friday-Saturday. Always calling at the most inappropriate timing!
Pouts*

Saturday 4am-Woke up studied NMM

5am-Went to mac for breakfast and study.

5.30am-Dad n bro surprised me by joining me for breakfast!!! *touched*
They left after breakfast, and i stayed in mac to finish my studying before heading sch for test.

10am-Did my test fast and left! Went oppo sch for breakfast yet again with louis. We shared, cheekui, carrot cake n fried no